mosaic broken hearts

"i think we hold on tightest to the things that aren't meant for us because at some level, we know they aren't really ours. we're always seeking the love we don't have. we're always trying to prove the things that are not entirely self-evident. we know that when we stop thinking and talking and racking… Continue reading mosaic broken hearts

“and what about you?”

i hate fireworks. apart from them being loud and obnoxious and an obvious fire hazard- they remind me of a really crappy time in my life. one time, a few years ago, i was dumped over a one sentence text message on the 4th of july. yikes. so every time that day comes around i… Continue reading “and what about you?”

comfortable silences.

why is it that when a moment ends we begin to feel all of it? i've spent half of my early 20's stuck in a lockdown. summers i'd imagined strolling down central park testing out my film camera and finding new hidden coffee shops are now a mixture of choosing which fan to buy because… Continue reading comfortable silences.

quarantine blues

what does it feel like to lose yourself? and what do you do if you've already lost yourself? two questions that have come up way too often in my life for the past few years. especially in the past year. as someone who felt like she was completely lost of herself, and has somehow made… Continue reading quarantine blues

i can (fall) asleep on airplanes now.

i fell asleep this morning on my flight. i don't know if it was the fact that im exhausted from what my life has been lately. but its just what it is, you know? its neither good or bad. it just is. i missed it so much. it made me remember why i used to… Continue reading i can (fall) asleep on airplanes now.

the “adults” are talking

i'm pretty sure everyone at this point feels like "when this is over" is more of a wish than a reality. when this is over- i'll spend more time with the people i love. when this is over, i'll travel more. when this is over, i'll be better to the people around me. i can't… Continue reading the “adults” are talking

april showers

"perhaps the names we cherish in our hearts are like our diaries, journals, and precious records of our lives."    have you ever been somewhere and you just want to remember it so clearly? i think these moments are counted. when you're not worried about the way you look or how you think your smile… Continue reading april showers

flowers and forgiveness

and find the place where every single thing you see , tells you to stay. -seeker so this is what happens when you haven't blogged in a long time and you don't know how to start. (fyi- im writing this as i think about the process of moving away and what the last 3 months… Continue reading flowers and forgiveness