disclaimer: of this post doesn't make sense its because it doesn't. i've written this over the course of the past few months. its not supposed to make sense. its supposed to make you feel something. its more like multiple diary entries in a mismatched order. "are we really gonna talk about timing in times like… Continue reading [timing]
"i think we hold on tightest to the things that aren't meant for us because at some level, we know they aren't really ours. we're always seeking the love we don't have. we're always trying to prove the things that are not entirely self-evident. we know that when we stop thinking and talking and racking… Continue reading mosaic broken hearts
i hate fireworks. apart from them being loud and obnoxious and an obvious fire hazard- they remind me of a really crappy time in my life. one time, a few years ago, i was dumped over a one sentence text message on the 4th of july. yikes. so every time that day comes around i… Continue reading “and what about you?”
why is it that when a moment ends we begin to feel all of it? i've spent half of my early 20's stuck in a lockdown. summers i'd imagined strolling down central park testing out my film camera and finding new hidden coffee shops are now a mixture of choosing which fan to buy because… Continue reading comfortable silences.
what does it feel like to lose yourself? and what do you do if you've already lost yourself? two questions that have come up way too often in my life for the past few years. especially in the past year. as someone who felt like she was completely lost of herself, and has somehow made… Continue reading quarantine blues
i fell asleep this morning on my flight. i don't know if it was the fact that im exhausted from what my life has been lately. but its just what it is, you know? its neither good or bad. it just is. i missed it so much. it made me remember why i used to… Continue reading i can (fall) asleep on airplanes now.
if you're new here- at the end of the year i always write a post about whatever i think i learned throughout that year. for whatever reason i chose the number 24. don't ask me why because i don't have an answer for you. i don't have much of an answer for anything these days… Continue reading 24×24
we all make so many lists. things we want in someone else. things we would like in our families, in our friends. but the truth is- we dont have much of a choice. we love who we love. our hearts and minds dont forget about that. we don't know what we want until its right… Continue reading lists
i'm pretty sure everyone at this point feels like "when this is over" is more of a wish than a reality. when this is over- i'll spend more time with the people i love. when this is over, i'll travel more. when this is over, i'll be better to the people around me. i can't… Continue reading the “adults” are talking
for as long as I can remember, my life has been about running from everything that scares me. everyone who knows me well, know that i'm a very calculating person when it comes to almost everything. and what i mean by that is i have a daily to-do list and a master to-do list. among… Continue reading a reason to stay.